Uncertainty

I'm only a sophomore in high school yet it seems like at least 99% of my friends know what they do with their lives. My sister knows where she wants to go to college and what she wants to do for a living. I have a friend who knows she wants to go to college in Japan and be a mangaka (draw manga). Almost everybody around me has some idea of what they want. I don't.

Okay, like I said, I'm only a sophomore, I've got time. I shouldn't know what I want with my life. But my problem is I don't even know what I'm interested in. Psychology sort of interests me, I like figuring out "why" and people are interesting. But I don't know what I'd do with a degree in psychology. Profiling might be cool, but I don't know if I'd want a crazy job like that. As for therapist...I don't know, just doesn't appeal to me. None of my other hobbies or things I like to do are helpful in figuring out what to do with myself.

My first choice is to be a writer. I'd get to spend my days how I want, work from home, sleep in as late as I want and read and write all day. I work best when I get to chose what I do when. Being a full-time writer would be heaven to me, but it won't pay the bills until I get my stuff out there...and actually finish a book.

I don't want to end up doing something I hate because I never figure out what I want to do with my life. I know I shouldn't worry, but not knowing where you're going to be in 5 or 10 years is kind of unsettling when it seems like everyone around you has a pretty good idea. I'll figure out what I want eventually. Thank goodness I've still got another two years before I have to choose a college.

Callie